Best Friends (:

So, this is my best friend. We became best friends on October 11, 2011. I know it hasn't been a long time, but ever since I met her, we've been the closest that anyone could possibly ever get. I'm at her house right now, and I can't express how much it makes me happy. I'm glad to call her my best friend and there's nothing that could tear us apart. We met in our AP World History class. We had to do a project together, and after we got together for the first time, we were hooked on each other and couldn't get enough of one another. I tell her everything and she does the same. We talk about our relationships and our deepest darkest secrets as if they were each others. We have no secrets from each other. For my birthday, she threw me a one-man surprise party with a whole lot of sticky notes and her dog. Only true friends make birthdays that special! She bought purple shirts so we can make matching shirts and have a purple out! I love her to death and I can only know her as my soul sister. She is one of the very few people that I love and treasure, and that I will always love and treasure until the day I die. We have decided to get pregnant together so we can have babies together, and so we could plan each other's baby showers! We even agreed to go Babies R' Us shopping together! I love this woman to death, and even though she may be difficult and grumpy, that makes who she is, and I love every single bit of her. Jace, I love you.

It's Been A While, But All Is Well.

It's been a while since the last time I talked, since the last time I truly talked. It's been a while since I've expressed myself regarding my emotions and life and everything else that revolves around it. I feel content with what I have and the things and people I've found on my journey. School is okay, God is great, and everything else just falls into place. I have a best friend, Jacey, and she's worked wonders with me! Explain to me this, if everything is so well, how come I haven't talked? Not because I have forgotten, but for the reason given: I have slipped. Away in life and time, living it to the fullest, I have slipped. But all is well, I can tame it. Oh, my dear mother. She's catastrophic. With my friends on my side, we blunder through life without thinking of the consequences that come with it. But all is well, for I realize what we do. I see the mistakes and the future coming. For I can foresee and waddle along, as an innocent and unharmed penguin does while wandering through the arctics, and I can be cautious with every move I make. And I am found, through Him, and I'm as happy as can be, but blindfolded, I make mistakes, while being completely aware of the tragic sight I have given to those around me. But all is well, I am forgiven, and I'm improving myself day by day. For I will stop, but I want to keep playing. My time isn't over, I'm not done yet, but I feel that when the time is right for me to go, I'll leave stealthy and quick, agile like a jungle cat, and never again come back. But until that day comes, I keep to myself; to my friends and family and all else that applies too. How many that is? Only a few. But all is well, it will be over soon.

All I Can't Say

There are so many words I cannot say,
when I look into your eyes.
I want to be able to tell you one day,
but I'm speechless every time that I try.

You must have stumbled across the key,
and discovered so much more.
You found a hidden place in me,
you found my heart and opened the door.
And I cried in pain
of losing my dear friend.

Will it ever be the same again?
If it passes, will it be the end?
I realized it was worth so much,
as I lie in bed that night.
So, I allowed my soul to be touched,
without even putting up a fight.
Are my eyes deceiving me,
when I see you standing there?
Are you playing games,
just to prove I care?

You speak my name in prelude,
in a reference to love,
with such loving attitude,
as if it were a message from above.
With the palms of your hands
pressed firmly against mine,
a white dove lands,
and the sun begins to shine.

Someday I will see,
though that day has not come yet.
You'll say you love me,
but will you ever forget?
If that happens and my spirit dies,
if my emotions drop,
will you want to hold me when I cry?
Or will the love just suddenly stop?
We can't expect to fall in love and never cry.

You'll stay and play your part,
but after the beauty starts to die,
will your footprints still be on my heart?
Though it would be hard to say goodbye,
your friend I'll always be,
as long as we always try,
to keep the friendship between you and me.

The letter I will not send
will casually inquire,
how could you have brought it to an end?
I was your one desire.
After this life is over,
you'll be one person I know I'll miss.

It'll be too late to start over,
and so I leave you with this:
I'll hold you for a lifetime,
if you'll just hold my hand.
We could have a wonderful time,
in the days we have not yet planned.

-A True Desire

Back Into The World

My tears ran like autumn rain
When cupid's love was slain
In my heart there was only pain
I turn my back upon the world.

My world was shattered
When I lost all that mattered
And my dreams were scattered
I turn my back upon the world.

My heart has been broken
Her love for me was only token
All her promises now forsaken
I turn my back upon the world.

The loss of my heart's desire
Cold embers where there once was fire
To love again I can only aspire
I turn my back upon the world.

But with head high, I went forward
Feeling not a little awkward
And I found my just reward
When I went again into the world.

Though my love ended in tears
It's never as dark as it appears
I've put aside my darkest fears
And I must go again out into the world.

Now, back from the brink of madness
With only distant memories of sadness
My heart no resounds in gladness
Now I"m back again into the world.

-A Friend Holding On To His Broken Heart

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When I hear you, my mind escapes this world and moves in rhythm with the beat. You embezzle my body and take over control. I  feel you over powering my soul, slowly grasping that last breath and pumping it to the beat of rigorous sex. You disregard my concerns and make my eyebrow arch in a seductive way. All I do is squirm, open and close my legs to your heartbeat. You distract the inside of me, intertwining me into you're catastrophic sense of feel. Up and down, bouncing along with you, I feel as if floating among clouds...being whirled into a tornado. You can bust my eardrums, but at the same time make my whole body feel at peace. With an adrenaline rush running through my veins, I can feel you crawling up my feet, into my body, and embracing my heart. You're that high that I call my friend, Miss Mary Jane. I feel inspiration as I squint my eyes with that devious grin on my face. Teach me the ways of being your mouse-trap. As I zone out, all I can think of is your pulse pulling away that last breath, while releasing just a little to overcome my vexations and burdens. I have become part of you; just take me, please.

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Sometimes, people are wrong. People just make mistakes. If you know someone loves you, they do everything for a reason, mom, stepdad, boyfriend...but if you really are meant to have someone in your life, they will come back. See, there's a person out there, in the world somewhere, and it would be looked down on by society if we weren't close, or had a relationship. One day, I got sick of his crap and I just gave up on him. I hate to always think about it, makes me want to cry, but it's for the best: the best for me. Then there's a girl. I used to talk to her a lot. One day, she said something that really hurt me and I didn't think she was worthy of friendship. I saw her the other day, and it seems that I have forgotten how much fun we can have together. And even though it was offensive, she didn't know, and she did apologize. I'm lucky to have her! Then there's him. He recently just came in, all of a sudden, and I accepted him as family immediately. I love him with all my heart, but he asks for too much sometimes and plus with all the hectic problems I'm dealing with right now, I don't know if I can stick with him. Let's not forget the other one. I love him, but then he always does things that upsets me. Don't get me wrong, he's amazing and always does a lot of things to please me, but sometimes he just doesn't realize what he's saying and it can hurt. I love all these people with a great passion, maybe someday they'll leave (if they haven't already) but they're here right now, by my side, helping me through what is known as life. I wish I could know who's going to stick around. I would avoid so many problems, mistakes, and conflicts. I wish I could know if only you were meant to be...

Why do people measure by how many years we live and not by how good our years were.

Dollie's in Lovee (:

You're Like a Ladybug: Cute and Independent, but Sometimes Unfairly Crushed

You're Bright and Peaceful, While Helping Others and Putting the Aching Hearts at Ease. You Are a Very Rare and Very Beautiful Person.